Finding Love

I heard the most interesting statement today. It was on the Marvelous TV Club, which is a podcast that explores Marvel Cinematic Universe shows. I was listening to an episode about Episode 3 of Loki. One of the overarching themes of the episode is love, and one of the hosts said,

“All of the things we think we know about love…turn out to not be particularly helpful when we are in love, or beginning to be in love, or wanting love.”

Something about that statement resonated with me. I’m not sure why, but I’ve been thinking a lot about love as of late. One fo the outcomes of covid-19 and the long quarantine period is that I’ve come to the conclusion I don’t want to be alone. Not that I’m in some state or dread, but life is meant to be shared….right?

I’m so accustomed to doing things alone that I sometimes wonder if I can be a “we”? Not that I want to be one of those people who loses themself in a relationship, or in someone else, but I’d like to experience being a couple in the world, growing and evolving together.

I struggle, it feels perpetually, to find the mutuality in romance. When I’m super intrigued by someone, they could give two shits. When someone is super intrigued with me, I could give two shits. Does that happen to anyone else?

If you don’t watch MCU shows, particularly Loki, spoiler alert!!!

If Loki can be on the verge of finding love, why not me?

Hmm…well I’m gonna try to not let it get me down. I’m finding it preoccupies my thoughts more and more as of late.

How is romance and dating going for you? Am I alone in this hole? Let me know your thoughts down in the comments.

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